I’m sitting in a chair forcing to write.
I’m looking out the window on my side
at all the beauty and I don’t care
because I feel it inside. Sharp pieces of glass sticking out of my side.
I swear it feels like that. “Please, never again!” I always say, and pretend its okay. And realize nothing is going to change.
I fall in deep traps for no reason.
I try not to cry.
And I won’t give in, yet I never win.
I’m always stuck with pain.
I’m lying on the grass looking at stars.
I turn and see a spider on my arm
And I do not even want to care.
Look at me. I’m going in circles.
You can’t stop me. I’m spinning in circles.
I cannot breathe…
music & lyrics by jordan sweeney 10/2007